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  Mom and Daddy looked at each other as a tear rolled down my cheek.

  “Kitten, do you think he feels the same for her?”

  Mom looked at me then back to Daddy. “Yes, Sam. I believe he does.”

  Daddy sighs. “So now what?”

  “I could wait to see if Stanford accepts me.”

  “You applied?” Mom asks, completely stunned.

  I nod. “Yes. I needed to, in case I got cold feet about New York. I didn’t know Parker or Samantha was going east too and I was going to bail. So I applied there and to U.C. Berkeley-Boalt.”

  “What if you don’t get in?” Daddy asks.

  “Then I need to wait a year and reapply. In the meantime, I work and be with Jaxen as much as I can.”

  “Sam…” Mom whined after a few minutes.

  “I know. You were right,” Daddy sighed.

  “Right about what?” I asked, looking back and forth between them. “What am I missing?”

  Daddy rubbed his face and moved to the edge of the couch then looked at me, his expression a mix of relief and glee.

  “Your grandparents are not getting any younger.”

  I giggled. “Well, none of us are, Daddy.”

  “True,” Daddy chuckled. “But they wanted to move back to California, and told me so right after I asked you to move to New York. They wanted to be closer to their grandchildren and decided to stay in New York when I told them you guys were moving there. Your mom doesn’t want to go east, but since you were going, she was willing to give it a shot. So that left me as the lone holdout. Chips are stacked against me now. We’re all staying.”

  My eyes watered and bulged. “No one’s going east? We’re all staying in California?”

  “We’re all staying, honey,” Daddy confirmed.

  I let out a big whoop, squeezed in between them on the couch and hugged them both tight.

  “Oh, God! I can’t believe this! I get to stay and be with Jaxen!”

  “We’re glad you want to be with us too, honey,” Mom chuckled.

  “Of course, Mommy! You guys too! Ooh, I have to find an apartment!”

  Mom gasped. “What? Why?”

  “I can’t stay here with you guys and your baby!”

  “But you are our baby, Itsy,” Mom whined.

  “I’m 22, Mom,” I giggled. “I should be out and about now. I’ll get a job and start saving. Wow, I cannot believe I’ll be living alone!”

  “Sam, do something,” Mom gasped.

  “Itsy, wait before you do anything. Job, apartment. All of it. Let’s wait to see if you get into Stanford or Boalt then we’ll work from there. Until then, you stay here with your mother and me.”

  “But Daddy--”

  “No arguments. You are our daughter and you will be here as long as you need to be. I wouldn’t care if you’re here forever.”

  I wrapped my arms around him and sighed. I really did miss him while he was in New York and I’m glad to get more time with him.

  “Yes, Daddy.”

  The next afternoon, I met with Parker and Samantha for lunch. Jaxen said he had something to do and would call me later to spend some time together. We decided to meet at Cracker Barrel and when I walked in the restaurant, I immediately found them, sitting at a table and kissing each other softly.

  “Ew,” I murmured as I sat across Parker. “Seriously, people are trying to eat and you’re putting me off the thought of food.”

  “I love you too, little sister,” Parker chuckled. He reached over and kissed my forehead. I smiled at him.

  Samantha grabbed my hand. “I’m so fucking happy, I could burst. Thank you, thank you, thank you!”

  I giggled. “For what?”

  “For falling in love with my brother and convincing your parents to stay in California!”

  “Yeah,” Parker nodded. “I wasn’t looking forward to moving. It was made better with Samantha going and there was no way I was going to let you go without me, but Mom was a battle I was slowly losing. I’m glad it’s worked out this way.”

  “Me too,” I grinned. “I really do love him, you know.”

  Parker looks at me a moment then nods. “Yes, Itsy, I know. Congrats.”

  My jaw drops. “Are you…”

  Parker nods. “I’m releasing you. I think you’re safe with him.”

  I cried and jumped up, wrapping my arms around his neck. Parker’s arms come around me and he sets me on his lap like he used to when we were little. I feel Samantha soothe me, rubbing my arm as I cried at the memory I have when I was two, the first time I sat in my big brother’s lap.

  “Don’t cry, sis,” Parker says as he rubs my back.

  “It’s going to be funny not having you ’protect’ me anymore,” I sniff when I relax.

  “Whoa,” Parker says pulling back and looking at me. “I’m releasing you from day-to-day protection. Jaxen fucks up with you… ever… and I kick his ass. Literally.”

  “Good,” I grin. “I think you’d be justified if he ever hurt me. Which I sincerely doubt he ever will.”

  “So do I,” Samantha sighs. “I think he’s changed for the better for her. I know I warned you over and over but I really believe he’s yours, Itsy.”

  “I know he is. He loves me,” I say softly. “And I love him.”

  “Good,” Parker smiles. “Now go clean your face. I don’t want to see tear tracks while I eat through half the menu.”

  I stand and Samantha does to. “I’ll come with you.”

  When we get to the ladies room, Samantha asks me to be her maid of honor. I eagerly agree and we make plans to start planning after the New Year.

  “July 26th will be here before you know it,” Samantha grins.

  “I know. I can’t wait. What are your colors?”

  “Parker’s favorite. Blood red and black. He’s so demonic and he’s got me loving that combo. I can’t wait to see him and the guys in black tuxes with the blood red shirt and ties. And you… I think you should be in black and the other bridesmaids should be in the red.”

  “Oh, please,” I beg. “I want to be in red. I love that color.”

  “You in red and the others in black?” Samantha murmurs, the wheels in her head spinning. “That could work. We have time to draw it out and agree. I want you to stand out from the others.”

  “We could ask Jaxen to draw it out in different scenarios, Sammi. Maybe get a better idea that way?”

  “Good idea,” a voice murmurs as Samantha nods. I turn to see who is talking and see no one. I frown.

  “You could also get him to draw wedding cakes. Tell him what you want, he can draw it out and you can take it to the baker.”

  I startle and drop my purse on the counter. Samantha giggled, reached in and grabbed my phone.

  “Your purse is making calls again, Itsy! Hi, Shauna!”

  Mom laughed. “Good afternoon, Samantha. Itsy, it’s a good thing you have unlimited minutes, honey. Your purse is always calling me! You have to learn to lock your phone!”

  I finally giggle and shake my head. “I know, Mom, and once again, I’m sorry. I keep forgetting. God, this is why my phone is always dead when I need to use it!”

  “It is, honey. Please try to remember this time. Enjoy your lunch. Bye, girls.”

  Samantha smiles. “Thanks, Shauna. Bye.”

  “Thanks, Mom. Bye!” I giggle and hang up, immediately remembering to lock the phone and toss it in my purse.

  “God, once your purse called me and you were shouting out my brother’s name. It totally put me off my dinner,” Samantha shuddered. “And sex. It took Parker’s tongue an hour to get me to respond and get that crap out of my head.”

  “Oh, God, Samantha!” I shouted. “Why did you do that to me?! UGH! I don’t need to hear about you and Parker!”

  “Payback’s a bitch,” Samantha laughed. “Learn to lock your frickin’ phone!”

  “Ew… I so will. And you need to get Jaxen to learn to not wait until his phone dies before plugging i
t up. Always kicking off in the middle of a conversation. That irritates me so much.”

  “You and Mom both. Then there’s the waiting for him to call back after he finds his charger. She’s always ready to ring his neck for that.”

  It took all my will power not to tell Jaxen I was staying in California. I wanted to wait until the last minute to tell him and I anticipated his reaction when I told him. I also asked Samantha and Parker to keep it from him while they said they were staying. I wanted to tell him, in my way and in my own time.

  Jaxen didn’t have to go in to work that day and I had no plans, so when he called me around three, I eagerly accepted his suggestion: to be alone in a hotel room making love.

  He picked me up an hour later and I told my parents I’d see them tomorrow and after Mom made sure I had my cell and charger, they kissed me goodbye and I bounced out of the house, jumped on the back of Jaxen’s bike and held on tight as it roared to life. He took off fast, his hand gripping my thigh as he drove and I almost screamed my news in my glee.

  He checked us into a cabin this time. When we got to the door, he lifted me and I wrapped my legs around his waist, kissing him as we went inside and straight to the bedroom.

  He had us naked in record time and as we dropped to the bed with our mouths fused, I was again tempted to tell him that I was staying. He rolled on a condom and when he cried out after he entered me, I damn near spilled again. He brought me to the edge with his slow, timed strokes and cried out myself when he stilled, kissing me all over my neck and collar bone as I calmed. He moved again, taking me there then stopped as I edged, in tears I felt so damn good.

  “Jaxen… please…” I panted when he stopped. He was panting, his eyes tightly closed and he was sweaty.

  “Making it last, baby,” he murmured into my neck.

  “But we have all night!”

  “Let’s use it to see how many times I can get you to the edge before you fall over. I believe that’s two.”

  “I have a better idea,” I moaned as he rolled us. I straddled him and started moving slowly up and down his shaft. “Let’s see how many orgasms you can give me during the course of our stay here.”

  “DEAL!” Jaxen shouted, pulling me down to kiss him. His arms locked on my back and he thrusted up fast and hard as he gripped my shoulders. I shook like a leaf in rainy wind.

  “One,” Jaxen murmured when he rolled me to my back.

  “One for you too,” I panted.

  “No, just you,” he whispered, kissing down my quivering belly. “The deal was how many times you can cum, not me.”

  “Let’s amend that,” I gasped as he mouth found my slit. “Oh, God…”

  “Amend it how,” Jaxen asked, his mouth full of me, vibrating against my clit. I arched and writhed into his lethal mouth.

  “Uh… I don’t… I need… AH! What?”

  “You said ‘amend the deal’,” Jaxen whispered again, sucking in my clit then lapped up my juices. “I’m listening.”

  I moaned loud. “Both of us! Both of us!”

  I heard Jaxen chuckle then he spread my lips wider and licked me like I was suddenly grape-flavored.

  “Both of us what, baby?”

  “See how… many… times… both of … ussssss… oh! Oh! Can cum! Oh God! Oh God! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!”

  When I stopped screaming, Jaxen bit at my inner thigh and chuckled. “But you’re already up by two, baby. That’s not fair.”

  Searching for breath, I glared at his head. “I didn’t say… whoo! I didn’t say… see who can… get the most!”

  “Ohhhhh, right. It’s how many we can give each other.”

  “Yes!” I groaned as he started in on my clit again. “Stop, Jaxen!”

  “Don’t wanna,” he slurped then flicked. “Gotta sweet tooth only your pussy can satisfy.”

  Groan!

  “Not fair!”

  God, his assault was brutal… licking, biting, sucking, slurping… no way in hell would I leave the room sane tomorrow if he kept that up.

  “Fuck, Red! STOP! STOP!”

  “I don’t wanna yet,” he chuckled then made a loud slurping noise that shot tingles everywhere.

  “I am begging you! AH! STOOOOOP!”

  “Why?”

  “Um! Um! I need to go to the store!” I shouted, gripping the sheet tightly, arching.

  “We’ll order room service.” He slurped again. “What do you want?”

  “CANDY!” I screamed. “WE NEED CANDY!”

  “I told you, I have all the sweets I need right here.” Then that fucker slowly licked at my clit.

  “You can’t eat me all night, Red! I won’t survive!” I moaned.

  “Let’s find out,” he said huskily then started flicking me fast and hard. My ass lifted off the bed and he gripped my hips, holding me suspended and still. Thank God we were in a secluded cabin; my throat burned from screaming loud as I came harder than I ever have.

  Red released me and massaged my body as he eased back up to lay beside me.

  “Still want to go to the store?” Red whispered after he pulled me close.

  I turned my head and glared at him. I hope he thinks he looks like he grew two heads.

  “You have to be shitting me. No way in hell I can make it to the bathroom, let alone a store. Asshole.”

  He laughed in my ear then bit my neck. “And why am I an asshole, baby?”

  I couldn’t even answer that because he wasn’t. I just rolled my eyes and enjoyed the relaxed euphoria coursing through me as he softly rubbed my body. After few minutes, I turned to him and wrapped my arms around his neck. I tilted my head up to him, silently asking for a kiss. He took no time in obliging, lowering his lips to mine immediately and kissed me long and deep while caressing me all over my body, anywhere he could reach. I shuddered in his arms. Until I met him, I never thought a kiss could make a person shudder. He owned that.

  His erection throbbed against my thigh then Jaxen rolled me to my back and eased between my legs. I moved my mouth from his and waited for him to enter me, holding my breath in complete anticipation as I gripped him. He didn’t keep me waiting for long. He slowly slid inside, inch by filling inch. I shuddered again and raised my hips, praying to get him deeper. He did and I cried out when I felt his crown hit something inside that felt so good and so… raw… that I tightened my eyes and gripped his skin. Jaxen lowered his forehead to mine and panted as he slowly moved his hard-as-steel flesh all the way in and all the way out.

  I started to shiver, breathing heavy as I reached my peak and wanted to scream. It took everything in me not to: biting my lip, pinching his back… I finally gave up and screamed inside my throat.

  Then I started thinking about Jaxen and how he has so much control. I needed to know. How does he manage to hold off and be so in charge of his release but my struggle usually started as soon as he entered me.

  I opened my eyes, still panting and gripping Jaxen, and looked up at him and finally saw his face as he moved in me. He face was contorted, his eyes tight. His lips were inside his mouth and he breathe deeply from his nose.

  “Jaxen,” I groaned, already edging.

  “Oh, God… don’t.”

  “Don’t what?” I groaned when his hips twisted and his shaft found another sensitive spot inside me.

  “Don’t talk… don’t breathe again. Please, baby… stop moving. Just lie here.”

  “I can’t!”

  “Fuck, you have to!” he groaned, lowering his head to my neck and panting hot breaths at my pulse point. “I need to concentrate or I’ll burst too soon.”

  “Tell me how you control yourself. Please. I swear I can’t hold back any longer.”

  “Let go and I’ll tell you. Just please stop talking or you’ll ruin this for us. Cum, baby. Let go.”

  “No, I don’t want… mm…”

  He moved his hips again in a way that made him rub my clit, my g-spot and that certain something else… AT THE SAME TIME!

  “Oh…
SHIT JAXEN! OH MY GOD!”

  “Give it to me! Let go!” Jaxen shouted, moving faster.

  I did. All over him and loud as I tried to grip something and shaking, quivering, wanting to call out to anyone I thought would come and rescue me from this glorious feeling as Jaxen move so fast and hard I was sure I would be black and blue as soon as he was done.

  Finally he stilled and shook, gripping the sheet on either side of my head.

  “Fuck, baby… FUCK!” he shouted then fell on top of me. “No more sex! Ever! God, you drive me in-fuckin-sane, baby!”

  I giggled through my exhaustive breaths. “What do you think you do to me?”

  “I’ve never… it’s so intense with you,” Jaxen murmured. “Unlike anything I’ve ever felt. God, I’m going to miss you so much.”

  I blinked back my tears. Now was the perfect time for me to tell him. I grinned and thought about what his reaction will be. I started to feel giddy so I let out a screeching giggle, almost sounding like a cat in pain. Jaxen stilled his breathing and leaned up on his elbows.

  “I’m sorry. I know we said no talking about that day but it’s creeping up on us.”

  “Jaxen, there’s something I should tell you.”

  “No talking, baby. I feel like shit now because I brought it up. Let’s just let it go, okay?”

  “But Jaxen--”

  “Please, Itsy, I’m begging you to drop this.”

  I looked at him and could see what I thought was pain and nodded. I could drop it for now and save my news for another day.

  Chapter 12

  Gray… Days 15 to 8

  I chuckle. “Mom!”

  Mom startles and wipes her mouth. “What?! Shit, I fell asleep again, didn’t I?”

  The entire clientele at the salon laughed loud as they shouted, “YES!”

  It really was funny. Since her wedding, my mother has fallen asleep at the most insane times and she usually slept until some nudged her. I thought she was turning narcoleptic or something but then I remembered something she said after I got home after that amazing night of sex Jaxen and I had.